Im just a little bit caught in the middle

I would donate both when Im dead - I signed up to the NHS Organ Donation Register this week - but not when Im alive.
I would donate a Kidney to a family member, but not Bone Marrow....im too much of a wimp to endure painful needles

Today, I bought a guitar :)
Ive been strumming all night and just playing random bits of songs i know
I keep doing the beginning bit of "Say" by John Mayer, hence the title haha
I cant wait to learn it properly :D my friend is coming over tomorrow and shes gonna bring her guitar and were gonna learn it :D
I feel like a child with a new toy, it awesome!
Its good too, cos usually i just sit on my arse all day or sleeeep
But now, ive got a hobby and im gonna stick to it
I might buy guitar lessons, like one-on-one ones hah

anyways, inabit, im going to bed
Im in work in the morrow :P
Faye xx

Not at all. My dad is a complete and utter tit. And my mum is a menopausal bitch, who's mood changes like the weather.
Sorted.

Okay, I've just been to see My Sisters Keeper and I must say, it was one of the saddest films i've seen yet.
We were all hysterical, crying! And on woman even blew her nose, after which everyone in the theatre erupted in laughter.


But it got me thinking, My life has been easy (ish) so far, an I shouldnt really complain, but it made me wish I had something wrong with me, or something terrible happen to me. Because, I feel that I dont deserve an easy life.
Im always looking up symptoms of anything online, just to see if I can relate it to me, hoping that there IS something wrong with me.


It sounds like a selfish way to live life, but in my eyes its not. And i'll say it straight out, im not a nice person. I drink (occaisionally), I swear, I dont believe in God and I hate my parents. Pretty much a stereotypical teen huh? Wrong! I actually feel guilty for these things, and I want to change.

But if you see where Im coming from, I'd apprecaite that. But I assume your just gonna think "what is she on about" or "shes so selfish, Im sure theres TONNES of people who would kill to have her life". That's my point, other people deserve my life, I dont.

Even though I do wish I had something wrong with me, Its still quite a scary thing, not knowing if your going to die or not.


The other day, I was getting ready in the morning, and I discovered a lump in one of my breasts. Im 16, and know that i'm not too young to develop breast cancer. So of course i told my mum and she made me a doctors appointment.  
I had to wait all day for 5 o'clock to come, and I spent that day in my head, considering what would happen if the doctor told me it was cancerous. Running through how I'd want to live the rest of my life.
It was such a relief for her to tell me it was just hormones turning fiberous or something.


Anyway, I dont know why Ive just bothered to type all this out. Im just in one of those moods where I feel the need to tell anyone everything, and no one else is up at 3am.

So what have we learnt here? My life sucks, but I wish it sucked more. Had a cancer scare, turns out it was me being a hypochondriac.
Oh and also, I can taste vomit at the back of my throat, I think im getting ill. yay...



Nevertheless, I will keep soldiering on, with my "terrible life"........until a worse one comes along :)
 

Last movie I saw was Transformers 2, and it was AWESOME!!
It was one of the best films Ive seen ever. Legit.
I sat there the whole time with my mouth wide open!

I really wanna go and see The Hangover and My Sister's Keeper
they look amazing. I love a good comedy and a film that makes you cry :)

Bored, Bored, Bored....



Pick your five favourite bands/singers.
1. The first song of theirs that you heard.
2. The song that made you love them/that you'll always love.
3. Your current favourite.

Jonas Brothers
1. I Wanna Be Like You
2. Goodnight And Goodbye
3. Fly With Me

Taylor Swift
1. White Horse
2.You Belong With Me
3. Youre Not Sorry (CSI Mix)

Demi Lovato
1.This Is Me
2.Get Back
3.Open

Kings of Leon
1.Sex On Fire
2.Sex On Fire
3. Be Somebody

Miley Cyrus
1. 7 Things
2. I Miss You
3. Ready, Set, Dont Go (with her dad)

On friday, we had to fill out the forms for our english coursework to be submitted
We were given our coursework back
and we had done 5 pieces but one wasnt marked when we got them back
butttt, these are the marks i got

Macbeth: A
Frankenstein : A
An Inspector Calls :A+
Aftermath (an original writing piece): A*

I nearly died when i saw that i had got an A* in my aftermath, basically it is the aftermath of an event

Im gonna post it on here an see what you peeps think ;)

I started a new job today
3 and a half hours after school
£6 an hour

as well as my job in Farmer Teds
so if i work two days a week in my new place
and then saturday in Farmer Teds
I will be earning £72.50 a week
which I think is marvelous!

With my money, I am going to save half
and spend half
therefore I will have lots of wonga to contribute towards university
and also for when me and my friend go to live in Miami

Im so good with money, its unbelievable!


Faye x x x x

I've been in work the past 3 days and, as well as out of common courtesy, i ask people if they are okay as in if they need anything
and i realised, no matter how many times you can ask someone if they are okay, to which most reply yes, are they actually okay?

Most people are good at putting on fronts, i know i am, and wouldnt actually admit it. But how strange would the world be, if when asked if they're okay, people actually admit what is wrong with them!

I know that i for one, wouldnt go round telling people my business, though at the moment, the newspapers have decided to. But that doesnt bother me, it hasnt for 15 years so why let it now?

Anyway, rant over. But just think about it.

Superhuman - Worlds tallest people

then im gonna watch Juno
its my favourite film EVER
it was before it was Nick Jonas'

its just another thing we have in common

alsooo i have a new Camera ;)

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Peace Love JB x x

I cant wait to go and see 17 again on Friday
mmm Zac Efron
I was in school today AGAIN
in my Easter Holidays
How slyyy
but its ok cos i put my ipod on the computer speakers
and me and Olivia had a raveeeee

i was going to bake cakes too
but the Alf the caretaker was being a gimp
so im gonna make them on friday
for Amy's birthday ;)

Just had the fittest wedges ever for my tea !!!

Love you and Leave you
Faye
x x x